Life as I currently know it is over
Too dramatic maybe…..
But seriously, is it?
What is going to change in my life?
Will we be able to just get in the car and go out for dinner?
Will I be able to train when I feel like it?
Will I have to pack a small village to go out to the supermarket?
Will I still be able to read every morning?
The realisation that my life is going to be different has hit. One of my beautiful clients who is also pregnant tagged me in a post on facebook this week
“The 23 things you MUST do before your baby arrives”
Go to the door with the door closed…
Wake up when you have finished sleeping…..
Leave the house on a whim….
Insert surprised emoji here.
Honestly, up until this point, as stupid as it may sound, I hadn’t considered how my life would change. Call me Mrs Naive but I kind of just thought that Lexie would slot in with a few minor adjustments. The reality is that I have no idea what is coming and it honestly freaks me out.
I haven’t met Lexie in person- I don’t know what she is going to be like. I have a fair idea that she is going to be a little sass Queen by the amount of movement she displays but apart from that- I don’t know when she will sleep or if people will freak her out or if Im going to freak out and want to wrap her in cotton wool.
The future is unknown for me at this point in time……. but does it really have to be?
I love my life. I love my career, I love my husband, I love going to the gym, I love staying at home.
Does Lexie really have to change my life that much?!
Yesterday I was getting interviewed for a Podcast and the question came up, “Where will you be in 12 months time”- it stumped me. My answer was a mixed bag of uncertainty mingled with sprinkles of values that are important to me. I don’t know specifically where I will be in 12 months but I do know that whatever I will be doing will not be at the expense of my core values. Continuing to be a voice for my babes. Continuing to be a voice for women to explore their true capabilities. This is something that I know will not be sacrificed. If anything I know that this will be enhanced with the arrival of my own little one.
For someone that is a massive planner, not being prepared is not where I like to live.
I have lists every day, journals to brainstorm ideas, journals to action tasks, daily reflection time, scheduled reading time. This is what makes me tick.
After having a massive afternoon of self reflection yesterday- my daily reading this morning involved some serious thinking and owning of my thoughts.
Yes life is going to change and yes there are going to be things that are uncertain but why cant I create the life I want.
I’ve been doing that for the last 4 years since moving to Australia. The last 9 months in particular I have moulded my days into what I want to do.
I read, I write, I Coach, I mentor, I train. But the most important part that brings me immense joy is that I get to give women a place to open up, feel safe and be unleash their true selves.
Over the last 24 hours my emotions have gone in full circle.
Many things I do not know are coming. Many things I do know are so strong and important to me that will not be left to the way side.
The next chapter of my life is quickly approaching and although I do not feel prepared for majority of whats to come, I am holding on tightly to everything that matters to me. Everything I believe in and stand for.
The mingling of Lexie, Rochene and Anthony is fast approaching.
Im not ready, but I’m excited.
14 Weeks to go