My oh my, Week 18 and Week 19 merged into two weeks of super intense brain gains resulting in super intense exhaustion.
As a Coach to any amazing squad of incredible women, it is my due diligence to ensure that I provide the best services and knowledge available to them. They trust me with their highest commodity therefore continually learning and up-skilling myself and my team is of utmost importance. Before I got pregnant- I embarked on two separate 12 month Personal Development Mentorship programs; Elite Coaches Breakfast Club and Wolfpack 2017. To say I was nervous and apprehensive about my work load for the coming year was something so real and something I had never doubted before.
Opening a Training Facility, managing a Team of four, attending seminars, spending time to use the information appropriately all while trying to deal with such a big physical change is overwhelming.
Over the past week I attended a four day seminar for my WolfPack course. I really didn’t anticipate or expect that Baby H was going to play a big role over this time. Boy was I wrong. After each day of learning in a sweaty hot environment I found a deja vu feeling from Trimester 1-all day sickness, heart burn to the point of vomiting and complete and utter brain exhaustion. Knowing how much I had financially invested in my education over the next 12 months I was not going to lie down easy- I got home after each day, brain dumped all the information into notes, slept woke up and did it all again. Over these four days, Baby H decided it was an appropriate time to start to move as much as possible. Im usually always up and down all day so sitting for the most part of the day- Baby wasn’t too keen on.
What does it feel like to have a baby moving around inside of you?
They say it feels like little butterflies. Either my baby is really an alien or is going to rip me apart from the inside out- Baby H literally feels like its turning around in somersaults in my belly. No butterflies- just straight up swimming laps.
Every day I can feel more and more movement. The movements are often not strong enough for my husband to feel so he is still waiting for the day to feel some of the goodness Im getting right now.
It often makes me feel nauseous but its totally worth it knowing that Baby H is alive and moving. Visiting the hospital for a routine check in this week, I was able to hear the heart beat for the first time. So powerful so fast, pretty fricken cool really.
This is really happening- Im pregnant- there is a person inside of me.
Now Im still not overly enthused about this whole pregnancy gig but the nauseous, exhaustion and uncertainty is making way for some really cool and new feelings. I’ve noticed this week how much my husband has started talking about seeing babies out and about. He sent me a snap chat of this little asian baby in a pram on the train with the caption “my new mate”. Its funny and strange for me to think that we are going to be someones “Mum and Dad” like seriously WTF?! I look at Ant and giggle to think that he is going to be a 40 year old Dad who dresses like Tony Hawk, wears his $5 purple vans and plays fantasy football with as much passion as the guys on the field.
How much are our lives going to actually change…… are we going to have to take 10 million bags to just drop down to the supermarket? Is it really going to be that hard to do things? Like can we just go down to get some dumplings for dinner or decide to go to New York like we have wanted to…… who knows!
Lots of people have started to give us little tid bits and make comments:
You wont be able to do that anymore
You will probably have to work less
How much time will you take off
You just don’t know how much your life is going to change
Just like personalities are different, I can only imagine that parenting for us is something that we can and will need to decide for ourselves when we get there.
Who know’s whats going to happen.
T-minus circa 4 months ish until we get to give it a shot though right.
Countdown is on.